Let’s talk about grudges. As I have gotten older, and much, much wiser, I have really embraced not holding grudges. I truly buy into the theory that holding grudges allows that other person/persons to control your emotions. If there is one thing I don’t like, it’s allowing others to control me.
That being said, I’m not super-human. To simply say, “I don’t hold grudges” is a blatant lie. We all feel crossed at some point, and all feel ill-will toward those that cross us. The key is to not hold on to that feeling. It isn’t always as easy as it sounds.
My most recent grudge was against my dogs. That’s right. Dogs.
Let me back up. We got a new couch. My husband doesn’t like sleeping with the TV on. I do. So, I banished myself to the couch because it comfortable. Weird to some of you, but I do sleep a lot better. The dogs normally go upstairs and sleep with my husband. However, lately, they have been waking up at 3 a.m. and playing on top of me. ON TOP OF ME. Exactly how it sounds. They wrestle right on top of me. Some of you have seen the picture of Yuki sitting on top of Rikka. Yeah, that bastard will straight-up sit on top of me, too. At 3 a.m.
Their transgressions were not forgotten. For a few days, I held a grudge against the dogs. It took me a while to sort through my emotions and realize that it really is my fault for not sleeping in the bed. And, dogs will be dogs. But, I did hold that grudge for a few days before rectifying the situation.
In a perfect world, there would be no place for grudges, but we’re human. We have feelings and those feelings get hurt. Often unintentionally, but often intentionally. The key is to let go of those feelings and find your inner peace.
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